Happy Birthday Nicolas! I love you!

On or about 7 years ago, I discovered that I was having a boy on the same day of his birth, it was confirmed with an ultrasound, August 3rd, 2004. I knew my whole pregnancy it was a boy, I had a dream in December right after I conceived that he was born with light hair, blue eyes, and light skin...and that bothered me because he seemed unreal, the only part I was sure about was that he was a boy...than I had the positive pregnancy test.

He had blue eyes (which changed to brown), dark brown hair, and lighter skin then me, and was a boy's boy! I had one chance to glance at him on August 3rd, and his father brought him once again to me at the operating table. I didn't get to hold him, or see him until about 16 hours later, they put me in this recovery room in which I was in and out of sleep, and couldn't move my legs. About five times, this lady came to ask me if I was sure I didn't want to circumcise...."NO, I DON'T WANT TO MUTILATE" my baby...leave me alone already. That experience had me traumatized and upset. I didn't know why it was happening to me, why I couldn't be with my baby. My legs were swollen, the pain was in the surgery area was unbearable, and some Chinese (or Asian) pediatrician doctor came to tell me that formula was safe, because I said that I didn't want my baby drinking formula because I wanted to breastfeed. I had to take the longest ride in a wheelchair to finally spend time with my baby, and it was so limited, but I focus on expressing milk which finally on the third day it started coming in bunches. Halleluiah! The breast milk started to flow, and Nicolas didn't need to be fed that formula anymore...

I came home, and I had to leave him in the hospital... I had to come home to look at all wonderful gifts that I received at the baby shower, but couldn't enjoy because he was still at the hospital. I was miserable for a few days, in pain, for having had pitocin labor for hours only to be cut for the c-section.

Finally he came to the home on Tuesday, August 10th. He had gained the weight he lost, and was as sleepy as ever. I didn't know what to do with myself; I didn't know if I was latching him on right.

I remember all this as if it was yesterday, my baby, is now turning 7 years old, talking to me, running like crazy, doesn't like to sleep late, always up early. He is my strength and joy. He is the one that motivates me to change, and sacrifice anything that I have to be stronger and wiser. Happy Birthday Nicolas...and know always that I love you with all my heart, from here to infinity!

My e-bay adventure

As you may or may not know, everyone is trying to make money

I'm going to help whoever wants help with my things that are cluttering my life, but have some value, and giving it away for less money...

So I posted an item on e-bay...If you know anyone intereseted please forward!

This is my description for the audiobook!

On 2004, I had my first born child. I had a normal pregnancy until I had my 3rd ultrasound where it showed oligohydromanus (low-amnio fluid). I wish I knew than, I had choices. I could have drank more water, I could have asked more questions, I could have demanded more information.

I was induced and at the time, I didn't know that I could choose to stand up, that I could choose to walk around, that hospital policy is not meant to protect me, but to protect the hospital.

Lynn Griesemer gives you secrets to a successful birth, and gives you the right resources to get more information, to use and prepare for a successful birth. I know because this is one of the audiobooks that I used to prepare for my successful VBAC (vaginal birth after ce-searan).

If you are preparing for a childbirth, this is a must have!
The message on the CD is invaluable.

You can visit the website of the original seller of the CD.

http://www.unassistedhomebirth.com/YBYB.html

The price you will get it for is a bargain!

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=280325553664&viewitem

My VBAC story in You Tube

This is the visual version of the story.

Lyrics to the song!!

You Gotta Believe Lyrics
Artist(Band):Natalie Brown

N. Brown/J. Rwakaara

V1
You've been thinking about your life
And wondering what to do
You have some big dreams inside
But how do you see them through
When you don't know where to go
To make a start
Tell ya what, listen to your heart
Focus on the prize, dreams will be realized
No matter what people say, keep going anyway

Chorus:
You gotta believe, believe in you
You gotta have faith, faith in all you do
You gotta stay strong, no matter what comes your way
Get on your knees so you won't stray
You gotta believe

V2
Sometimes when you
Have a dream to achieve
Things get rough and tight
But ya gotta believe
That if you stay in the game
You'll come out on top
So give it your all, don't ever stop
Focus on the prize, dreams will be realized
No matter what people say, keep going anyway

Bridge:
Focus so you won't stray
No matter what people will say
Keep on goin' do your best
Know that you will be blessed

A video about Natural Childbirth for Twins and Triplets

Rupture rates after c-sections

http://vbacfacts.com/2008/06/18/rupture-rate-10-for-vba2c-with-prior-vaginal-birth-within-one-year-of-last-cesarean/

I think that this article gives interesting facts about the reality in rupture rates after having a c-section.