Happy Birthday Nicolas! I love you!

On or about 7 years ago, I discovered that I was having a boy on the same day of his birth, it was confirmed with an ultrasound, August 3rd, 2004. I knew my whole pregnancy it was a boy, I had a dream in December right after I conceived that he was born with light hair, blue eyes, and light skin...and that bothered me because he seemed unreal, the only part I was sure about was that he was a boy...than I had the positive pregnancy test.

He had blue eyes (which changed to brown), dark brown hair, and lighter skin then me, and was a boy's boy! I had one chance to glance at him on August 3rd, and his father brought him once again to me at the operating table. I didn't get to hold him, or see him until about 16 hours later, they put me in this recovery room in which I was in and out of sleep, and couldn't move my legs. About five times, this lady came to ask me if I was sure I didn't want to circumcise...."NO, I DON'T WANT TO MUTILATE" my baby...leave me alone already. That experience had me traumatized and upset. I didn't know why it was happening to me, why I couldn't be with my baby. My legs were swollen, the pain was in the surgery area was unbearable, and some Chinese (or Asian) pediatrician doctor came to tell me that formula was safe, because I said that I didn't want my baby drinking formula because I wanted to breastfeed. I had to take the longest ride in a wheelchair to finally spend time with my baby, and it was so limited, but I focus on expressing milk which finally on the third day it started coming in bunches. Halleluiah! The breast milk started to flow, and Nicolas didn't need to be fed that formula anymore...

I came home, and I had to leave him in the hospital... I had to come home to look at all wonderful gifts that I received at the baby shower, but couldn't enjoy because he was still at the hospital. I was miserable for a few days, in pain, for having had pitocin labor for hours only to be cut for the c-section.

Finally he came to the home on Tuesday, August 10th. He had gained the weight he lost, and was as sleepy as ever. I didn't know what to do with myself; I didn't know if I was latching him on right.

I remember all this as if it was yesterday, my baby, is now turning 7 years old, talking to me, running like crazy, doesn't like to sleep late, always up early. He is my strength and joy. He is the one that motivates me to change, and sacrifice anything that I have to be stronger and wiser. Happy Birthday Nicolas...and know always that I love you with all my heart, from here to infinity!

My VBAC story in You Tube

This is the visual version of the story.

Lyrics to the song!!

You Gotta Believe Lyrics
Artist(Band):Natalie Brown

N. Brown/J. Rwakaara

V1
You've been thinking about your life
And wondering what to do
You have some big dreams inside
But how do you see them through
When you don't know where to go
To make a start
Tell ya what, listen to your heart
Focus on the prize, dreams will be realized
No matter what people say, keep going anyway

Chorus:
You gotta believe, believe in you
You gotta have faith, faith in all you do
You gotta stay strong, no matter what comes your way
Get on your knees so you won't stray
You gotta believe

V2
Sometimes when you
Have a dream to achieve
Things get rough and tight
But ya gotta believe
That if you stay in the game
You'll come out on top
So give it your all, don't ever stop
Focus on the prize, dreams will be realized
No matter what people say, keep going anyway

Bridge:
Focus so you won't stray
No matter what people will say
Keep on goin' do your best
Know that you will be blessed

Vitamin K injections

This article states reasons and information about the Vitamin K shot given to newborns routinely at the hospital.


http://www.givingbirthnaturally.com/newborn-vitamin-k.html

The rationale for newborn vitamin K injection at birth is that newborns are born with a "deficiency" of vitamin K. This perceived "deficiency" can lead to decreased clotting ability of the blood, that can leave the newborn more susceptible to hemorrhage. The risk is quite small, only about 1 in 200, but it does exist....

The prepuce

Care for the prepuce...
How the prepuce works...
Why the heck do we have a prepuce...

This link is a video about the prepuce.
http://www.doctorsopposingcircumcision.org/video/prepuce.html

Snowed in at 22 weeks!!

Sometime during the night, it started to snow here in New Jersey and the tri-state area. When we woke up at 6:30 am, there was plenty of snow in the ground as you can see in the pictures. One of the pictures is Nico trying to clean the car, and the dog watching.



I had to call in at 7 am and at that time they said they had a delayed opening of one hour. I needed to be at work, but that made me depressed because I couldn't stand the idea of driving for 25 miles in this type of weather. Luckily, my co-worker called me at about 9 am, and asked me if I had left yet, I was planning to catch the train, and was getting ready to walk out the door. She called to tell me that they updated the message and CLOSED for the day. What a relief!! I felt like a ton of bricks had fallen off my back. However, not in its entirety, because I know that I have to do the work I didn't do TODAY on MONDAY...YIKES!!!

I haven't spoken about the dog. She is a really cute German Shepperd and Rottweiler mix (in Spanish is Pastor Aleman mixto con .....). We found her lost and no one claimed her, plus she had no collar on. We decided to keep her in the house.

Keeping a positive and stress free mindset throughout your pregnancy seems to be very important. I was reading the birth stories in the book, "Journey Into Motherhood" that I mentioned before in a previous blog, and they are mostly inspiring, and unlimited. They continuously refer you to think positive, stand your ground, be assertive and informed. These women read before their birthing time, and were able to make effective and sound decisions about what they wanted to have for their birth. Eventually, each and everyone of these women went onto having peaceful and great satisfying births.

As for the circumcision controversy, I decided a long time ago that my first son was not going to be circumcised. They asked me in the hospital about 3 times, and I believe this was the minimum. Well, they may have asked me while I was unconscious. I guess they wanted to make that extra $$$. None of my other children if I have more boys will be cut. I believed that if boys were meant to be without the skin, they would not have the extra skin, it serves it's purpose. The bible talks about circumcision, is really disturbing. It is somewhere in the Genesis chapters, where I read about its purpose and I was appalled. According to some major activists, circumcision is a cruel and unnecessary act. I feel that this website is compelling, and informative nocirc.org when it comes to discussing reasons for not doing a circumcission. I post the website against circumcission, but of course you can always find your pro websites. Personally, I do not want to know where they are.

I'm still researching the vaccination issue. I'm going to see two actual places that sell cloth diapers, so that I may feel them, hopefully compare prices, and different materials. Thanks for listening to my rant.